Real me sucks

Today i am not feeling good. A sudden cloud of gloominess has surrounded me. It is because i have accidently found out the real me.I am not the considerate person that i thought i was. I thought i wasn't selfish, i thought..............pchh
It is really sad when u find out that u r not the person u thought u were all these days.

Today i went out to buy a 5 lt 'water can' and i had exactly 45 Rs which is the exact price of it. On the way to market i saw an old man begging and he really looked pathetic. At once i felt sorry for him but did nothing ,i just passed past him .Although i was not in a position to offer him a permanent help , i could have certainly helped him temporarily by giving some money i had. I cud have easily done that. But i didn't.Why?. My preference was more to the mineral water that i wanted so that i wudn't suffer from sorethroat or some kind of minor problem. Why didn't i think from the other person's position where getting something(hygenic or not ,doesn't matter) to eat is of utmost importance. There was no hard and fast rule that i had to take 5 lt, i cud have given him some money and settle for 1 lt or 500 ml.Or i cud have given him enough money,go back to my room get 45 Rs and buy my 5 lt. But i did none of the above . It is another story that i felt guilty abt it,and the shopkeeper had no 5 lt cans with him ,so on my way back i gave the old man some money.The good thing was that ,atleast i didnot think of how much i shud give him- 5,10,15 or 20 .Nothing. I just put my hands into my pocket and gave him whatever came out.

Anyway the point is that why didn't i help him in the first place. We have many good ideas within us. we feel like helping the poor. we talk about giving love to the unpriviledged.We feel emotional when we see some movies and decide to help,do something to the society etc,etc....... But are we ready to do what we intended to do when faced with reality?
I am sorry if i am generalizing this but this is what i found out in me today,and many around me in general. We give importance to little things which are absolutely unneccesary and ignore our duties towards the society.....

We complain about education system,We complain abt political system,this and that, we complain complain complain. We sometimes even say "enough of complaining,lets do something to the country on our own,lets make a difference,blah blah blah...." and sure enough some of ideas are really good but when it comes to implementation--- how many of us really do?


Atleast i thought i wud but .......I am sorry ,i am not what i thought i am.......... Hope atleast u are what u think u are.

ps: i am sorry if u find this post meaningless ,it is just that i am thinking many things at the same time and also i am confused abt who i really am.

Strange Phenomenon

Hi
I am back after a long gap.As I am writing this I am still thinking why haven't I blogged for such a long time.The answer as I think is a strange phenomenon which I discovered long back but confirmed recently.I still haven't given it a name(suggestions are welcomed)

We all love games,right.Be it indoor or outdoor or computer games.But why is that the urge to play them rises more and more only during examination time .I play them even on normal days,but I play a lot during exams.If u observe all my previous blogs were written within a span of 1 week and that week happens to be my examination week(Mid-Term Exams).The last day of our exams was March 3(which is also the last day I blogged here). After that I rarely felt like blogging.I stopped playing those games which I played so extensively during that week.I even get the best dreams/sleeps only during examination time.i do/try new things during this time as if there was no time later. When I first started observing this,I thought I had some serious problem, but lately I realised that many of my frds too experience a similar feeling.

We gave a serious thought as to why this happens.The only logical conclusion we cud come to was that "during exams we stress ourselves a lot and the mind(esp MY mind) which is accustomed to relaxing tries to remain in the same state( Newtons Law of Inertia..eh?)and hence we play/sleep/dream/indulge in new acivities more during the examination period".

hmmm....I have 3 projects to submit and i am happily blogging(hey this confirms my phenomenon again).

He he he...Me and my Lazy Brain,we never change.........

Licence to Kill!!!!!!!

What?Is it true?
Absolutely
Where?
In my college.
What?
yes its true.
Cost?
Nothing.Just ur Ass.
What?
Yep.
Who issues it?
The person who issues it ,actually gets screwd.Funny as it may sound ,but its true.
Are u refering to....

Yes my friend u got that right.I am refering to the three b's(barbaric birthday bashes)
The day u announce that ur b'day is on so and so date U r literally fixing ur date with YAMA. The other day i saw my frd getting one hell of a beating and the only mistake he did was to make his b'day date public.In just a matter of few minutes his 'Happy' birthday was turned into Pain.

Come On guys.Is this the way we greet our frds on their b'day.In our school days we were like eagerly waiting for our b'days. We were waiting for all those calls at 12,receiving all those warm smiles and wishes.We enjoyed the fact that we were given priority/special treatment that day.Friends and Family try to make u feel Special. U somehow felt good about being born on that day.U want everyone to know that its ur b'day today.But here...... U wish no one knows that its ur b'day today.u hide from ur frds.Ur own frds are now ur yamadhuths.

When asked why do people involve in such barbaric acts--- I got a list of wierd answers.
"We only intend to have some fun"
How can u have fun when u see the guy growling in pain(and almost crying with pain) unless u r some kind of a jerk who derives sadistic pleasure on hearing others mourn and cry with pain.
"We just want to make his day memorable"
Oh yeah.tell me something that i don't know.He is for sure going to remember it forever but is it the way it should be?Think people.
"Hey even i don't like to kick people.But that was till yesterday.I was in his shoes yesterday.I just want to return the Favour"
Its just like when we were juniors in our b.tech we hated ragging.But once we became seniors we thought --we were not spared by our seniors then why shud we spare our juniors.

It has become recursive or rather a cycle.U kick someone,he kicks someone (so that the other person also goes thru the same agony that he went) and that someone will kick someone else and this goes on.some day u r on the HitList.The amount of pain u induce into the system increases with every recursive step.

Sometimes these bashes become so wild that i really fear that something might go wrong someday.The poor guy is kicked with out any mercy and often few blows are off target and hit the guy in the spine and sometimes in some sensitive areas.It is really dangerous at times.The 'bakra' as he is called is thrown into the pond which has a rocky bed causing a lot of pain to the 'bakra' when he falls in some awkward position.Who is responsible if he breaks a bone or worse if a damage occurs to the spine.

Having fun is different.It shud be fun to both the parties involved.And the worst part is that when i ask people to stop they ask me----" when is ur b'day ?".

I have even seen people trying to settle there differences in such bashes.When ever some one has some issue with someone he asks his frd "Aee bidu ,patha kar iska b'day kab hein".

Isn't this going too far.
Plzz stop involving in such acts and if possible try to make the guy feel happy or special not a 'Bakra' ...